THEY STILL WALK
Micro-fiction by Proteem Bhaduri
By the time the vaccine reached Indian shores in March 2021, the official death toll attributed to the novel coronavirus stood at 12,459 in the country. Of course, some insisted the actual number was far higher – with many fatalities either unrecorded, or suppressed.
Irrespective, over the course of the next several months, a nationwide campaign to administer the vaccine to its teeming populace was orchestrated successfully, and life in India began limping back to normalcy.
The streets were no longer swathed in eerie emptiness, the sounds of birdsong were no longer the only evidence of life in the vast, urban jungles. There were people on the streets – people with real faces and identities, no longer obscured by motley masks. People who slowly learnt to smile again, to hope again, to mingle again. Families who no longer feared stepping out together, and lovers who no longer feared holding hands in public.
Of course, it took much longer for the shell-shocked economy to recover, for deserted offices to reopen, and for a stunned society to regroup. Stray coughs still sounded like gunshots for a while, but slowly and undeniably, India healed.
Almost. The deepest scar left by the pandemic still remains.
The meandering droves on the outer roads that stretch into the hinterlands of India. Who died a long time ago, but they still walk.
They were called migrants in life, and they remain migrants in the after-life – caught forever between this world and the next. Unwanted in both.
At the height of the pandemic, no one wanted them loose in the cities, yet no one told them how to get back to their villages. So they began to walk.
They walked because they didn’t know what else to do, because no one told them what else they could do.
Some walked a hundred miles, some five hundred. Some died with just a few miles left to go, some with many more, but they all died. Men, women, children, and infants cradled in arms.
They died of exhaustion, of starvation, or some simply because their hearts gave up hope, but they all died. On their feet.
But like an endless procession of vaguely human-shaped withering meat, they still walk. Even though they go nowhere.
Their frayed clothes rustle against their frayed skin. Makeshift masks hang loosely from decaying faces with desperation frozen on them. Missing chunks of flesh have fed hungry animals. Some eyes have been pecked out by birds, some not yet; but they’re all the same gaping holes of nothingness. And feet worn down to alabaster bone continue to shuffle.
They are wispy now, not whole – spectral, fluttering in the wind, shimmering in the sunlight and headlights. Fragmenting when a car passes right through. Only to reassemble instantly. And still walk.
In time, we might get used to seeing them. Not feel afraid anymore. But I don’t think we’ll ever stop feeling guilty.